My dog, Ryder, has an obsession. This is a picture of him obsessing. Just to the left of where he is looking is the door to a bedroom. Behind that door lies the object of his obsession. For an hour last night, he sat in that position, staring and waiting.
His obsession is our cat, Lucy. Ryder waits and waits for a movement or an appearance by Lucy so that he can chase her or bark at her. Lucy torments him from behind the door, knowing she is safe. I can call him and he may turn, but remains transfixed by his obsession – motionless, almost unable to pull himself away.
Obsession and What If
Watching him last night made me wonder about the things I may have been obsessed and transfixed by in my life. Obsession means – preoccupy or fill the mind of (someone) continually, intrusively, and to a troubling extent. I realized there have definitely been things I obsessed over. Fear is one of those things – fear can render you motionless and transfixed on the object of your fear or of fear itself. I obsessed over what could be, what might happen if, what might happen if not and more. “What if” can become an obsession. An obsession can be a crutch or a wall to hide behind.
I have never been obsessed to the point that my life stopped and I became dysfunctional. My obsessions were temporary like Ryder’s. He doesn’t sit and stare at the door everyday, he just has his occasional moments. However, I know from personal experience, that an obsession can be working in the background even as your life seemingly moves along at a normal flow. That’s how some of my fears have been – gnawing away in the depth of your heart and soul – a gnawing that does not fully abate. Instead, it would rise and fall like seasons in my life.
Fear of Fear can be an Obsession
When I ran my non-profit, the fear was constant. We operated on grant money which can come or go with little notice. It was a constant roller coaster of fear and struggle. Would we have money next year? Would I be able to continue to pay my employees? What if? It ate away at me for seven years. I was working two full-time jobs and loved what I did. But, the constant adrenaline flow from the stream of fear was slowly eating away at me and I didn’t even realize it.
I finally quit. We merged with a larger organization and I quit. I came very close to a breakdown but managed to hang on through the ride. When I came out the other side, I was able to look back and see myself staring at the door – transfixed and obsessed.
If you find yourself there, there is only one thing to do – step away. I don’t mean quit your job or walk out on your family. I mean, step away from the fear. For me, it was time to walk away from a job, but, honestly, it was walking away from the fear. The fear was twenty-four-seven for me. I was on-call twenty-four-seven for 7 years. I was an emergency responder and would have to run out of the house at three in the morning, drive into remote areas, and respond to the emergency – domestic violence, death, suicide, etc. It became too much, so, for me, I had to quit the job, the stress, the fear. I had to step away and up. To Him.
Do what you must to break away from the obsession. It might be a small change in your life – turn your phone off for a couple of hours everyday and do something that takes you and your mind far from that “thing.” Practice thanksgiving; walk; run; sing; dance; pray and meditate; lay down in the grass and stare at the clouds!
Remember, obsessions aren’t always things that make you unable to function. They can be much smaller, yet still do damage to your body, soul,
Your Power is Greater than the Power of Obsession and Fear
Take away the power of obsession. We are meant to be the ones who know how to put these things under our feet as Jesus did. All things are under His feet.
Ephesians 1:17-22, “God of our Lord Jesus the Anointed, Father of Glory: I call out to You on behalf of Your people. Give them minds ready to receive wisdom and revelation so they will truly know You. Open the eyes of their hearts, and let the light of Your truth flood in. Shine Your light on the hope You are calling them to embrace. Reveal to them the glorious riches You are preparing as their inheritance. Let them see the full extent of Your power that is at work in those of us who believe, and may it be done according to Your might and power.”
“Friends, it is the same might and resurrection power that He used in the Anointed One to raise Him from the dead and to position Him at His right hand in heaven. THERE IS NOTHING OVER HIM. He’s above all rule, authority, power, and dominion; over every name that is invoked, over every title that is bestowed in this age and the next. GOD HAS PLACED ALL THINGS BENEATH HIS FEET AND ANOINTED HIM AS THE HEAD OVER ALL THINGS FOR HIS CHURCH. The church is His body, the fullness of the One who fills all in all.‘ The Voice
Ephesians 2:6, ‘He raised us up with Him and seated us in the heavenly realms with our beloved Jesus the Anointed, the Liberating King,‘
The only obsession is Him. The step away is a step toward Him. It is a step up. You are seated with Him and those fears, those obsessions with worldly things are under His feet and yours! You have the power,